爱你胜过自己

我们之前的一切 让我的心残废
要多少智慧 才能够无所谓
倒不如给幸福多一次机会
我不想难过 你选择了沉默
我们笑 把感伤轻轻带过
如果能够重新来过 我们有没有把握
只是放开这样的你 并不容易
为何这一切已注定
不争气
这对你着迷的心
留下难看的字迹 相信我会痊愈
原来这场战役我输得最彻底
胜利的你却不屑的走下去
留下无法磨灭的回忆
爱你胜过自己

WHY?

Because of my brain, you gave up the promise?
Because of your dearest + trusted friends, You chose not to trust me!
Because of your maturity, both of us sacrificed.
I don't want "Sorry"
I just want a hug, a warm hug.
I just want a sincere heart from you.

A heart full with love, trustworthy, caring...................................

BUT

WHERE AM I NOW?

THINKING OF ALL IMPOSSIBILITIES..................

I smile because you are fine now, with an angel by your side.
I know, it's the ending........

between

YOU & ME

Pity? or Crazy?

These few days, i would just feel depressed, down and weary.
I don't know why I would be in such depressed stage. I myself also couldn't understand.

Feeling exhausted, I just feel wanna sleep!!!

But now, my mind just recalled an incident that became a hot topic in my class.
LOl..................it's totally shocking and scary.

A thief that should not be thief.

i just wonder why there is individual with such funny mental in this world.
What on earth this is?
You stole people's things ( OK, although you mentioned that you didn't mean it).
BUT..................................
What are you talking about??!!
You are the future hope of this country.
You are lucky enough to secure the golden chance that everyone aims.
BUT..........
you destroy, damage your own future.....................................................

无助

第一次用华语写部落格......
有种重新找回当初热爱华语的热忱........
曾经,我告诉自己不管将来如何——我一定要把华语揽在身上！

可是..........
事实往往就是这样。
人生，也总是这样。
要有那么一点遗憾，才会完美。

完美吗？
我不知道。

这几天，心里空空的.............
有时，不明白自己在那么一瞬间怎么会有那种想法。
不了解...............
累~~除了累，还是累！

此时此刻，
我的内心充满挣扎、犹豫、彷徨、茫然.......
我不知道自己该回家.............

很好笑的问题!
可是，我才刚到没一个月又要再回家吗？
很烦！
机票价钱，让我犹豫。
另一个原因是——回家后，就会放纵自己、尽情地玩！

我不想增加爹地和妈咪的负担。
这短短一个月，他们为我还了千多令吉。
上次回家、年终假期、新年.....区区三次来回， 破千！
唉~~~~

烦烦！！
真的很烦！
决定留下.........
可是，想到90%这里会是空城......................
我的心就..................................................................
我不是勇敢的女孩！
我不勇敢！
我怕孤独!
我怕一个人留在这！
我怕！
可是.......................................................................
怕又能怎样呢？

我真的很无助...................
讨厌！！！！！！！

Diarrhoea

Finally, i felt a bit better .......(a bit......i meant it) after rushing toilet for 2 times within 5 minutes.
Oh nO!! This is not a suitable time to get diarrhoea..
I was really feeling sick and couldn't fall asleep that i chose to sit in front my laptop.
haizzzzzzz.......................

my housemate also faced same problem as me.
Both of us rushed toilet.....( How bad that there is only one toilet in each unit)
She called me outside, BUT, i couldn't help...........

EXHAUSTED!!!!
I FELT TIRED!
COLD SWEAT KEPT POPPING OUT FROM MY FOREHEAD!!!

NO H1N1...........
I ALSO DIDN'T WANT DEMAM DENGGI

Disappointment

I am disappointed with him.
Yes, I admit that I pay more expectation and attention on another brother.
But, this doesn't mean that I do not care about him.

Dad and Mom's tears touch every single corner of my heart.
You are the eldest son of them.
They put high expectation on you.
May be you are really not talented in study stuffs or whatever things.


But................
Have you ever try your best?
Dota........Cartoon...........Naruto.................and blablabla..............
Yes! Those are normal things in a boy's teenage age.

But..............
Have you ever think of your future?
Have you ever care about parents' tears when you shout loudly on them?
Have you ever be considerate ( even if it's only 1%) about parents?
Have you ever know and realise that Dad and Mom work so hard, just to struggle and let all of us can have better education?
so that we would end up to be in more educated and have better futures.
Have you ever think of who pay for your tuition fees?
History, Science, English, Malay, Mandarin, Math, Geography.

They try their best~!
They use their hands to create such chances for you~!

BUT.................
Have you ever say "Thank you"?
Have you ever had a sense of appreciation in your heart?
Have you ever appreciate their efforts?

Do you ever imagine their feelings when you show them the report card?
Do you ever think of their hard work when you are still in front of PC although 2moro is exam?
Do you ever think Mom's hope on you?

You are a boy!
You are their eldest son!

No one expect you to score flying colours!
No one expect you to score full marks!
No one expect you to get first position in your class!
Position and marks are nothing!
The main thing is your efforts!!!
Have you ever ever TRY?
Have you ever TRY YOUR BEST during exams?
Have you ever do revision?

You never know.....................................................
How disappointing Mom is.......
You never know....................................................
How disappointing Dad is.........
You never know...............
How disappointing I am.....................................
You never know how Mom shed tears just because of you.

When will you realise?
When will you know Dad and Mom's efforts and hopes?

HaircUT

Just now, i went to the saloon for a thorough hair wash and haircut.......
Wow........my cousin is really pro in washing hair.....yeah!! his girlfriend REALLY lucky to have such a good guy as boyfriend...hahaha........
Nice massage; Nice hair wash; Nice hair cut.

After the cutting, i felt somehow a bit relief.
Thanks, cousin.......hey hey..............
YOU ARE REALLY GREAT IN MASSAGING.
i admit it...................

When i back again for the next time, i want a massage again. HAhahahaha.